VIDEO IS OUT...

GUYS IT'S OUT THERE

THE VIDEO IS OUT.

IT'S SHORT.

IT'S SMALL.

I SURE WISH I WAS MORE CREATIVE.

BUT HEY,

I'M WORKING ON IT.

GO LOOK:

mashafaye.blogspot.com

EIGHTEEN...

GUYS!! so was my birthday a few days ago!!!

Plus I made a new blog that I've been dreaming to open for a while..

more like change.. it's not all the way finished, but I'm going to include 

more photography, and inspiration in there..

please go look and check out my first post + pictures (maybe even a video *shocker*) about my birthday!

 

come join me:)

click the link!

mashafaye.blogspot.com

I WANT LOVE

aren't these two just so cute?

i love being able to capture such moments..

These past few weeks, maybe even months, I started thinking about love.

What is love?

I love the people around me, my family,

but is that how it will feel when you fall in love with the one?

I don't even know how I love. I mean, I don't know the feeling of loving my family, 

I just do. I just really do love them.

But is that it?

Alright then,

how will I know when I start loving him?

How will I know he loves me?

...

and

...

will he really?

because, you see, 

i want to love and be loved..

10 TIPS FOR SURVIVING COLLEGE // PART 2

a continuation for..

DISCLAIMER: there may or may not be exactly ten tips. all these tips are collected from either my own experiences, or people close to me who have been in similar circumstances.

..and say good morning whenever you can. 

This is just a plus, once again, for you. Teachers feel good, students see that you're not some hostile animal, pluses all around. Make an effort whether you're feeling it or not, just don't overdo it. 

this. this is even smiling and it's cute 

Not of yourself. Please, not that. 

I'm talking about your expectations of how college and the people there are and should be. Maybe the title should be changed to: Don't Expect Much. Meaning, it's not going to be a walk in the park. Or maybe, it's just going to be a walk in the park. Don't expect to come in and having everything go perfectly, and especially don't go in expecting tons of new friends. Which goes on to my next tip:

Be prepared for heartbreak. And lots of it.

I think this concerns the friendship aspect more than anything else. I came in to college slightly - okay, not slightly. more like very much - expecting that I'm going to befriend people, or that people will befriend me and we will live happily ever after. Ta-da-la-la. I'm sorry. I'm a sucker for such things. I know some of you, realists, probably sighed deeply after reading this. That's okay, my family does that all the time. 

One thing is that most students in college don't care much about making friends. At least they give off a very good impression that they don't. Which is sad.

Even if you befriend them, people in college will come and go. Some are finishing up, some are transferring soon somewhere else, and who knows maybe something else. There is this guy I met in one of my classes who I've become closer-than-others-to, and BOOM! he'll be gone next semester. I almost cried. 

And you might too. 

So be careful..

please

*whispers* i know how it feels..

Please, if you don't understand something, talk to your teacher. Email, face-to-face, whatever will help you understand your situation easier and better.

Raise your hands even!
You're doing this for yourself. If you don't understand something, you won't understand whatever is related to it, and then it ends up that you don't understand anything at all. 

Although I'm pushing you so much on this, I just want to say that I don't do this enough. I actually hate doing this and I practically never do. I'm terribly shy, if you haven't yet noticed so this is something I have to work on constantly. So we can work together.

This is just something everybody most definitely should do, but nobody really does, while knowing that they most definitely should. This is basically something I'm throwing out because.. you just should.

and so should I..

*THIS. this is the most accurate description*

Just thought of this one at the last minute, but I'm so glad I got it in before I posted the.. well, post. Probably when learning something new, do it a couple times the right and taught and long way. But then..

There's nothing wrong in trying to figure out what's best and easier for you. Because what may work for one, doesn't work well enough for another. And everyone has their own way of facing and solving a problem. You know how they say, the fastest way is the way you know best. 

And, obviously, watch it, okay? Don't do something crazy and say it was just your own way of doing it. There are places and there are times, and you gotta know where to do your own "thang". I'm telling ya'll this because I believe you are all very godly and moral citizens. 

don't let me down..

AND LAST OF ALL...

In the midst of all your studious learning and time-consuming whatever, don't forget to enjoy this ride. Who knows how long it's going to last, so enjoy each moment and live it to the fullest.. back again to slamming your 100 down.

make your memories... :)

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so, thanks for staying for the second part of 10 Tips for Surviving College. 

Hoped you liked it, and if you didn't.. well, make your own tips and follow them to your heart's desire. Hah. MAKE YOUR OWN SHORTCUT. get it? no?.. okay.. 

I think you should to able to get that^ 

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Yay, I'm trying a different color, hah.

Anyway, if you enjoyed this, comment below and tell me..

what you agreed the most with?

or 

what's something you do different?

and

what's something you want to hear next?

10 TIPS FOR SURVIVING COLLEGE // PART 1

I don't know how many of you are homeschooled, but from the many blogs I've visited, I'm guessing quite a few.
Whether you are or are not homeschooled, it doesn't really matter. I just happen to share an instant personal connection with those who are, or were homeschooled, because I've been in your shoes, sister/brother/person/citizen. And it sure was one of a ride!

...

I'm glad it's over.

Don't get me wrong. I do not regret being homeschooled. And if I have children, I will do my best to see them homeschooled. Personally, I believe homeschool does have a lot of positive influence on one's life; although, I must say, there are a few minuses. But that's for another time.
The reason why I started with post about college with homeschool, is because, usually, after you're done with high school, you tend to go to college to further your education. Duh. That's what happened with me. (although I'm still not done with high school. i'm working on that at the same time I'm in college.. mwhahaha)
Anyway, it tends to be quite hard - especially on the homeschoolers, who have never, or close to never, been in public schools - to go to a public college. Not because they might have problems with socializing to real people (don't ever think that way about us - even though it's true), but because the schedule, rules, and curriculum are totally different from how it was in homeschool. You basically wear mismatched clothes and eat/sleep through all the classes in homeschool.
No..? Am I...the only..one?

Soo.. shall I begin?

DISCLAIMER: there may or may not be exactly ten tips. all these tips are collected from either my own experiences, or people close to me who have been in similar circumstances.

Oh yes, trust me, it's very scary. I know. Going into a room full of stranger danger people and maybe somehow having to interact with them, one way or another? TERRIFYING. My hands shook nonstop the first two weeks. It was that bad for me. But then, after a while, I found out that college students usually don't bite. And neither do the teachers. All you have to do, is to be chill and take it all in stride. You're not here to make bffs with everyone. And I bet the same goes for them, too, however sad it seems. 

But if you do panic, that's okay. It's normal. It's not as if after this semester I won't panic for the next one. Trust me, I will. 

Do everything. As soon as you can. Whether it's homework, classwork, registration, anything, get it off your chest. I also know this very well. And I can't stress it enough - actually, more like my mum can't. I know media somewhat glorifies procrastination - even though it says it's bad - but procrastination is not cool. It's not. It messes up your life and your priorities, and makes you miss out on important things that happen exactly when you're finishing your work the day before it's due. So do what you need and go live in peace. I'll catch up with you in a sec *get it? get it?*

Okay, so this is a very important one. I learned that carrying food with you - whether a granola bar, a drink of some sort, snacks - will never do you any harm. Food will actually keep you from harm. 

Hungry = Angry = Hangry

Yah. Don't mess with that.

Especially if you have at least four classes, like I do, without any breaks. Only five minutes to go from one class to another. Which is horrible. 

Also, don't be ashamed of eating your food. Unless it's all over you, you have to full right to eat whatever and however you want. You're hungry, you have full permission. 

just don't eat in classes where the teachers are mean..

This tip is probably the most controversial one of all. It was a very hard one for me to understand, even more to accept. I still can't even fully accept this. What I'm trying to say is, if you're working on some type of paper or project, talking about your ideas and your understandings and what you think, won't really get you anywhere. Teachers and professors want to hear what they want to, not what you say. This is unfortunately very true. And I'm not the only one to think so. If you want a good grade, you basically gotta suck up and tell them what they want to hear and read. I've tried both ways, and this is just how it is. I know, I know. It feels as if you're somehow betraying and demeaning yourself, and it feels horrible. I protested against this constantly in the beginning of my semester, but then I had to give up. I'm not saying to stoop yourself down everywhere and forever, but in most cases you will have to do so to get your good end. 

You can do whatever you want later, when you've got your doctor's degree:P

Basically, whatever you do, put in your 100 down. Slam it. You'll always feel better too. Even if you are sucking up, do it well. Haha..

..but seriously.

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This is it!!! 

haha just kidding. The second part is almost ready and will come out soon. 

It just turned out to be a very long post and I didn't want to have it big. Plus, I get to have a ready post for next time. Which is... 

soon. 

If not at the end of this week then most certainly next week.

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tell me what you think! 

do you agree/disagree? what can I add? any questions?

COMMENT BELOW

OHH YES. OHH NO.

Hello!!!

I HAVE MISSED THIS HOMEY BLOGGER WORLD!!!

I see many of you have kept up your amazing selves and wrote posts upon posts upon POSTS,

while I have done... nothing..?

Well, that's slightly true. But then, life has been throwing me around - quite literally - and slamming me against brick walls, concrete pavements, and possibly trying to drown me in homework. I have to admit, most of it is my fault, but it's still very painful. When I fall down, I pick myself up, only to be tripped once more into the same emotional mess I came out of. (oh no, did I just say emotions?!?)

Yeah, it's been a pretty crazy ride. 

*whispering* "it's still not over. this is only the beginning"

*high pitched scream from somewhere in the background*

But really, everything's going just dandy. 

I'm now in college.

We're moving.

I want to buy a pet pygmy goat.

I have a new crush.

But there's something else I wanted to mention. 

I want to try making a video for you guys, annnd well, also for me. I want to experience and see how it goes. Maybe post it on youtube for easier access. But I don't want people I know personally to see it, though. IT WOULD BE EMBARRASSING!!! Especially the first one. But I feel as though you guys won't judge and will love me still, even though I'm such a weirdo and yah...

PLEASE! TELL ME WHAT YOU GUYS THINK!

and what you want to see

BUT WAIT, THERE'S MORE 

I want to do some guest posts, interview with as much as possible with you guys. I am running out of ideas what to write and I love asking people questions. So, if you are interested in doing that, PLEASE, let me know. 

CHIO..

and beautiful citizen of my blog *blowing kiss*

*LIGHT BULB FLASHING*

i shall call you citizens and you shall be my citizens 

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GOODBYE 16 // HELLO 17

As of November 1, I am officially 17. 

I can't even believe it myself. How? How did everything fly by so fast? I'm still living. I'm still breathing. And..

Oh! How I want to return to those past days and relive my life to this moment! To fix all those stupid mistakes I've made, treasure the "right now" moments more, and fully understand that life, keeps going; no matter what. I'd get to 17 even without that desire to be there. I wish I'd known better. 

But if there would only be one thing I've learned from all those years, it's this: you CAN'T go back. The past is the past. 

As of November 1, I am officially 17.

I can't even believe it myself. How? How did everything fly by so fast? I'm still living. I'm still breathing. And..

it's beautiful.

Please excuse my childish face. I am still not allowed to try free food samples when I don't have my parents close by. *disappointed head shaking*

psst.. pssstt.. guys..
i have a couple more ideas for posts coming soon..
including school, life, fears, and lessons..
stay tuned?

THE FACTS OF HATE

i hate the fact that we can never be secure about our safety.
i hate the fact that i'm insecure about myself.
i sometimes hate the fact that i'm not like other girls.
i hate the fact that i can't feel comfortable not being in a skirt.
i hate the fact that i'm almost never comfortable around people..
even my own family
i hate the fact that i always feel like i made a mistake
and whenever people start laughing, i always wonder if i'm the one they're laughing at.
i hate pretending everything is good when everything is not
and i hate feeling bad when others have it worse.
i hate the fact that i complain.
i hate the fact that i back down on my promises.
i hate that i can't help but keep falling down
and sometimes, not even trying or wanting to get back up.
i hate the fact that even mild jokes about me or my weight hurt me.
i wish they didn't. it's not like i should care, right?
i hate the fact that i feel fat
and the fact that i don't do anything to feel better.
i hate the fact that everyone's too busy or tired to do something..
and that i'm like that too.
i hate the fact that i don't learn from my mistakes.
i hate the fact that i'm too trusting.
i hate the fact that i waste my time doing nothing when i could've done so much.
i hate the fact that i don't have any true friends.
i hate the fact that even though frankness is the way too go,
no one wants to hear it and neither do i.
i hate the fact that i get irritated when shown my faults.
i hate the fact that i'm lazy.

i hate the fact that there are more of these facts that I hate..

and i hate the fact that even though i hate all these facts

i don't do anything to change them.

TIME MACHINE?! // NOMINATION #2

  I've never yet tried to align the text to the left on the this blog yet, so why not try it now? I'm feeling like doing something different no matter how small and insignificant it is right now.. hashtag rebel.

Just kidding ☺

Oh, stars and earth particles! I just learned how to make these keyboard emoji's!!! ☺♥☻

See.. you learn something new everyday when you choose to go the other way. *intelligent and inspiring life motivation right here*

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  You might have noticed me gone from the blogger world. I, have been working on a teleporting machine and it somehow magically transported me to the wonderful state of Washington. #iwish No, but really, I've been in Washington for almost a week and a half and when I came home, we had to get ready for our church camp. I was, as a matter of fact, writing a post the day we were leaving to Washington but I had drop it because.. we were.. leaving. So I sorta have a valid excuse. Sorta.

It was fun. It was great. It was okay. I liked it. 

  No, but seriously, it was great. It all happened quite unexpectedly in the way that I had no clue whether I was going to Washington for sure till almost the last minuet. I was pretty excited to go adventuring and do something somewhere else. There wasn't really any adventuring, but I like to think there was. From this trip, I have gained many lessons in and about life and made several mental notes about changing myself. I should write them down so I wouldn't forget + they might also make a very interesting future post.. hmmmm. 

love you a Washingtooooooon..
Did I just make a pun?!?! NO WaYYY...
#nopunintended #butimlovingit

  I took this trip with my sister and her family and right before we left, I became sick to my stomach. Literally. For some reason, I started to have stomach pains. Maybe it the bacon I ate that morning, or maybe it was that I was so nervous. Because, you know, what if something happens to you or your family and then you'll never see them again or something? I prefer to die with my family around me, to be honest. But anyway, we had quite the time driving 27? 28? hours all the there. By the way, anyone living in Montana is SO lucky! The nature is just beautiful over there. If I get a travel buddy in the future, I'd definitely go exploring there a.s.a.p. I really enjoyed the time there spent camping in Idaho, swimming in amazingly clear lakes, waking up to bonfires, meeting new friends, selling firewood to fellow campers, and just joyfully living life. The only thing I'm quite sorry about was the fact that we only spent half a Sunday afternoon is the little tiny town of Walla Walla. It's just a small town but it has it's own lovely and unique tone about it. I know quite a few people there and hoped to hang out with them but fate and everything else was against us. *sad smiley face* But I promise to come back..

calm and collected.. 

 hah, NO.

more like

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I said I would return with another tagged nomination.. here it goes..

Annd.. I can't do it. The last week, something really uncomfortable happened so that I had to change my email. It's no longer lifeasmariya@gmail.com but nameisayiram@gmail.com. I'm pretty mad myself so please don't judge me. I'm just completely mad at the whole situation as well. Anyway, long story short, because I changed my email, I had to change my blogger admin or something similar and now all the people I followed before on blogger have disappeared and I can't follow anyone now? WHATT??? If anybody has a clue to what might be going on, I beg you, please help me!

THE RETURN // NOMINATION #1

I have returned. It took awhile, I know, and I wish I had some pretty excusable excuses; unfortunately, there aren't that many. But we won't dwell on the past..

Yup. His face speaks of true pain. I cannot stop watching it over and over. 

My laptop came back - still with no name - and I did, I promise you I did, have many really interesting topics and subjects on which I wanted to write about. And then I forgot one of the key rule thingy I wanted to point out on the most important subject. The whole many weeks before, I kept walking around imaging my "article" thing and how to write it and beautify it - alert, alert, key word here - and all that jazz. And having it just slip out like that is really almost impolite.
*throwing the blame around like confetti here*

But really, it has been slightly crazy here. I had to take an ACT test on the 13th. I need to make a 24 on it so I can get into college early, but I don't think that's happening. I'm lucky if it's 22. IF. As if. Yeah. And the kidos left awhile back with the birthing going all right, thankfully.
Right now I'm staying over at my sister's house. We planned to go swimming tomorrow on my niece's birthday, but the lady whose house we were supposed to go just gave birth. How great is that? But I also really wanted to go swimming. I haven't been swimming for three years now and I really miss it. I'm glad the little guy is finally here, though:)

What's been going with you guys lately?

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I am seriously so happy that I made the decision of becoming a blogger. I was bored and I wanted to do something that none of my friends or family knew about. I wanted to do something different, something new. And I did it. And now I have friends and a family whose kindness and friendship I'll honestly never forget. I love you guys!

Now this really lovely person I call my blogger friend, Paige from Sunday Best and All the Rest, tagged me in the Sisterhood of the World Bloggers Award.

 Thank you so much Paige! It has been one of my dreams to be tagged in some type of an award! (I was also nominated in another award so that's coming soon!! Eeep!!)
Here it goes:

rules: 

1. Thank the blogger who nominated you, linking back to their site. 
2. Put the Award logo on your blog. 
3. Answer the ten questions sent to you. 
4. Make up ten new questions for your nominees to answer. 
5. Nominate ten blogs.*
I'm afraid that I cannot nominate so many due to, just, things..?


 questions // answers:

1. Have you ever been in a choir or other singing group? I actually have and still do. When I was a little kid in my old church I used to go to the kid's choir.. good memories. And in my new church I used to sing with four other girls my age. Now I sometimes sing with the youth choir. 

2. Do you have any strange or unusual talents (e.g. wiggling ears, yodeling)? Not to my knowledge. Now I'm asking everyone I know if I have any XD I'm learning to raise my left eyebrow.. does that count as a talent?? But my niece can lick her elbow..

3. Do you find wombats cute and cuddly? YES!!! I want one nowwww!!!!!!!!! Someone buy me a wombat please.........

how can you not find them all cute and cuddly..?

4. What was the last song you heard? I don't even remember what I ate for breakfast... usually..

5. What were you very happy to accomplish last year? Uhhh... I don't... know??

6. What do you hope to accomplish this year? To get into college; learn a lot of piano techniques; get into better physical shape; improve my photography skills; and just improve myself and who I am.

7. Given the choice, would you rather have someone over for dinner tomorrow or go to someone else's house for dinner? It really depends but I'd go with dinner at someone's house. But only if they cook very good.. (or is it well?)

8.  If you could be a pen-pal or e-pal with someone from any nation, what country would you choose (it can't be a country in which you already have a friend)? Russia for sure, but I also would love Australia or Austria!! 

9. What is one thing you disliked doing as a child and now enjoy doing as a teen or adult? Definitely sleeping, and eating vegetables - yuuumm, and sometimes being left alone. I also love getting clothes as gifts; I remember hating that.. 

10. Has blogging changed you as a person? If so, how? Can't really say it has changed me, but I love feeling and knowing that someone somewhere reads my stuff and appreciates it(?). Love the little fluttery thingy when someone hopes you feel better or just really anything.. it's like you really mean something. Doesn't matter what prompted them to write, it's that they actually took the time to write.  

 

my questions:

1. If you were asked to speak to a graduating class, what would you say?

 2. What is your happiest childhood memory?  What makes it so special?

3. Would you rather visit a lush forest or a beautiful desert?

4. Have you ever been in a newspaper?

5. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature what new animal would you create?

6. If you could ask your future self one question what would it be?

7. Have you ever had a secret admirer?

8. What's the next thing you would like to learn or master. 

9. What historical figure would you love to see in 21st century life?

10. What do you love the most about blogging?

my nominees:

Phoebe at life with Phoebs

Olivia at Life as a Young Lady

Christine at Everything is Blogsome

Olivia at summer of 1999

Maiya at Wispy and Willowy
Hannah at Grace in Everything

if you guys have already done this award then I guess feel free to do whatever you want, no pressure :)

p.s. I'll be doing another nomination soon, too:)

p.s.s. Thank you guys for EVERYTHING!! 

INTERVIEW

Salut! 

(that's a French hello for you there)

You basically know something good is about to happen when a person says 'hi' in a different language. *spoiler alert* But seriously, try noticing this.

I have a surprise for you guys!! It's an interview time with Olivia Williams from Life as a Young Lady! Over the last week we have sent out 15 questions for each other and then our answers. So, keep checking her blog for her interview questions with me.. tadadada!!!

Here it goes:

1. if you could change your name, would you? I wouldn't! My name fits me so well, and also it was handed down to me from my mom's side of the family, so I want to keep it.

2. what was/is a nickname you always wanted to be called? I was really always okay with just "Olivia" haha. But now my mom insists on calling me "La-La" (long story originating with my little brother), my extended family calls me "Livvy" (a common nickname that I guess I can't complain about), and my friend will not stop calling me "Olive Tree". Like??? I know my name literally means "olive tree" but does she have to call me that?

3. would you rather be invisible or have the ability to fly? Being invisible would allow me to take food without my parents noticing. Also I could sleep as long as I want without them knowing where I am. Since food and sleep are my top priorities, I'm going with invisibility.

4. what is something silly you've always wanted to do? I...have no idea haha. I think it's silly that I want to make a successful studio film one day...but I don't know if that actually counts as something silly.

5. do you go more for style or comfort? Comfort for sure. I like looking good (just went shopping yesterday holla) but if the clothes aren't comfortable, then I don't want 'em.

5. what is your favorite quote? "Am I more than you bargained for yet?"--Fall Out Boy, Sugar We're Goin Down

6. would you rather go to a museum or a theater? Museums are nice, but depending on what's being displayed in the museum, I'd rather go to the movie theater (unless the museum is like a Marvel museum or something awesome like that) 

7. what is a quality you look for when you meet new people? A sense of humor like mine. Also music and TV/movie taste that is at least similar to mine.

8. would you like to have the life of a celebrity? NOOOO. I feel like once you become a celebrity, you sort of sell your soul to it--you don't have a life anymore; paparazzi follow you around; nothing is private; people basically treat you like you're not a human and don't deserve to have a normal life. I never, ever want to be a celebrity. Ever.

9. what are three things you really like about yourself? Ooooh...this one is hard. I guess that I'm not fake, I'm Christian. and that I don't like Twilight.

10. what is your favorite flower (other than a rose)? I don't know any flowers but the rose haha. I guess sunflowers.

11. what was the last serious question you've asked/needed an answer for? "Can I sleep over at Melody's house?" (If you don't think this question is serious then you don't know my parents.)

12. are you an introvert or an extrovert? Introvert for sure. I get literally physically exhausted by being around people for too long.

13. what's your favorite song? Currently I'm loving My Songs Know What You Did in the Dark by Fall Out Boy and Elastic Heart by Sia and the Weeknd.

14. what is one thing you regret in life? Wanting to grow up. I wanted to be older so badly when I was younger and now that I'm hearing about all the terrors of high school and college and taxes and other bleh stuff that comes with life, I just want to go back to being three years old.

15. what is something you want? To move to Georgia. I've been wanting to for like a year now. I really hope it happens.

excuse the double 5, I just noticed it right now.. :S

I made Olivia answer a question more.. Mwahaha!!! 

Soo.. it's so much fun getting to know people in the blogging community!! And it's totally sweet to get new friends that you probably would never have met otherwise!! Go and check her blog out too.

Hey, Olivia.. we have many similarities;))