VIDEO IS OUT...

GUYS IT'S OUT THERE

THE VIDEO IS OUT.

IT'S SHORT.

IT'S SMALL.

I SURE WISH I WAS MORE CREATIVE.

BUT HEY,

I'M WORKING ON IT.

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I WANT LOVE

aren't these two just so cute?

i love being able to capture such moments..

These past few weeks, maybe even months, I started thinking about love.

What is love?

I love the people around me, my family,

but is that how it will feel when you fall in love with the one?

I don't even know how I love. I mean, I don't know the feeling of loving my family, 

I just do. I just really do love them.

But is that it?

Alright then,

how will I know when I start loving him?

How will I know he loves me?

...

and

...

will he really?

because, you see, 

i want to love and be loved..

GOODBYE 16 // HELLO 17

As of November 1, I am officially 17. 

I can't even believe it myself. How? How did everything fly by so fast? I'm still living. I'm still breathing. And..

Oh! How I want to return to those past days and relive my life to this moment! To fix all those stupid mistakes I've made, treasure the "right now" moments more, and fully understand that life, keeps going; no matter what. I'd get to 17 even without that desire to be there. I wish I'd known better. 

But if there would only be one thing I've learned from all those years, it's this: you CAN'T go back. The past is the past. 

As of November 1, I am officially 17.

I can't even believe it myself. How? How did everything fly by so fast? I'm still living. I'm still breathing. And..

it's beautiful.

Please excuse my childish face. I am still not allowed to try free food samples when I don't have my parents close by. *disappointed head shaking*

psst.. pssstt.. guys..
i have a couple more ideas for posts coming soon..
including school, life, fears, and lessons..
stay tuned?

EEP

Ughh.. I really don't even know where to begin. The end of last week and the start of this week had a pretty rocky time. Been bouncing from nervousness to excitement, from happy to sad, from sick to better and now back to sick, I think. Eh, this is life, so might as well go with the flow.

Anywho, the nervous part came from my piano recital which was on Friday. It wasn't my favorite one.. 'nuff said. And on Saturday morning, we had spring cleaning in our church. Then in the evening we were at my cousin's house. And that's kinda were it started. All I ate was a salad, and after that, I felt like continuously puking at everything. And everything, everything, I looked at made me feel nauseous. It was so not fun. Thankfully, after two pills of enzymes (which help with digestion and stuff like that), Sunday morning was so much better. I even formulated this theory that I hope will help me in the future. Imagine this: you have a lot of food on your plate, right? Salads, and meat, and everything like that. Each of them is delicious. But throw all that into the blender. How does it make you feel? Not that good, right? Would you eat your blend of meats and salads? Probably not. At least not with a hearty appetite. THIS is what happens in your STOMACH. Help it a little, why don't you?       I totally understand that that's pretty much exactly what the stomach is supposed to do, but be considerate and put at least a little less in there. Basically this is for me to keep in mind since I have a lot of problems with my stomach lately. But if it helps you, great!

*mini rant* if you haven't noticed

After church, some of our youth, my brothers and I decided to go, on what I call, an adventure! Basically, visiting the Sculpture Garden in Minneapolis. I have never ever been there, only heard about it and seen pictures, but my brothers have been there tons. But they were being sweet and went for me:) aww! It was great, it really was! I saw the whole cherry and spoon thing and then we walked through this place where there were other sculptures and took bunch of pictures. Then we crossed this bridge with cars whizzing past underneath. I stood came up to the edge and waved down. And people actually waved back and honked at me, can you believe that?!? That was seriously one of the best feelings ever!!!!! I really love being friendly to random strangers, and when they're friendly back at you... breathless! Pure JOY. The whole experience was phenomenal. We then walked a little farther, as soon as we got off the bridge, around a circle - I even saw a BLACK squirrel, WHAAA?? - and then back to our cars. But it was just, WOW. I even have a couple pictures to show you..:)

something like a mini walk-through botanical garden  

succulents.. 'nuff said

#cherrypickin

this was probably my favorite one

After all this, we were really hungry. Reaaally hungry. One of the guys offered to go to this restaurant called Holy Land. It's basically a mix of Middle Eastern cuisines. SO SO very good. Mmm mm mmm....

Anyway! Thanks guys for reading all this... if you did *eyebrows raised*.. sorry for the mini rant but hopefully all things will end well... 

Just noticed some more of you left a couple comments on my other posts.. gtg check em out!! :P

SUNDAY OUTFIT // DAY 5

I love Sundays. I can go to church, fill my head and heart with the Word of God to think over the week.

Our church is very small, about around 60 people, but I love it very much. That's the good thing about a small church. You get to know everybody. And you get to know them know than just a-face-you-see-every-Sunday.

Well, I've seen some OOTD's (outfit of the day) around other blogs and decided to try it. I'm not a big fan of taking pictures of myself or having others do it - because I only have brothers or my parents to do it and, believe me, that gets awkward - so I just took a picture of the clothes. I'm also not a huge fashion enthusiast, well maybe, but I like dressing up every once in a while so I hope you enjoy this:)

OUTFIT DETAILS:

shirt - Sear's 
skirt - Target
knit cardigan - garage sale
watch - birthday present


The best thing about this whole outfit is the fact that none of these items cost a lot. Basically, nothing in my closet costs too much of a pretty penny. I've had a couple but they were either totally worth it or very much regretted.
The pencil skirt is probably one of my favorite buys as I've been looking for one that's modest and at the same time pretty cute; it was only around $7!!
The price for the shirt was $7 as well. Pricey, but it's just too cute.
My mother bought the cardigan at a garage sale for about $.25 or $.75. This is exactly why I love garage sales :)
The watch I got from my brother on my birthday - like two years ago? It's very slender and chic and I wear it whenever I go out.



If you like this OOTD post, please let me know so I can do more:)

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Day 5:

Something you would change about the world?

A million things and probably everything. But, honestly, I don't care. I just really really want the Lord to come faster and take us all home. I'm tired living in a world full of sin and grief.

That is that.